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Mar. 27th, 2010


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Feb. 22nd, 2010


Let's all go swing dancing!

I have found the web page of the place that has Tuesday night swing dancing! Doors open at 7:30, lessons start at 8:00, beginner lessons end at 9:00, intermediate lessons end at 9:45 and you can stay until 11:30 to mingle and dance. We should totally do this! Who's in? We don't have to go right away because the upcoming month is really busy, but after that we should try and go sometime. Maybe once or twice a month?

I don't say anything iinteresting so you don't need to read this if you don't feel like it

Today was drama class and we went over every song (we're doing Godspell*) and got our CDs. It kind of stinks to be an alto because we always get the harmony which I find very difficult, I usually end up singing the melody by accident. I just need to practice more. Now I have a score to mark up and a CD to memorize from so I guess I'm going to have Godspell stuck in my head for the next couple of months. It's going to be fun though, everyone is getting the music really fast and we should be working more on the blocking next week. I made up a prop list and had people mark what they could bring and there are only six things that still need to be found, so that's pretty good (last year I brought almost every prop myself and Mrs. Geisel brought the rest). 

I read a really interesting short story for English class tomorrow called "The Yellow Wallpaper" by Charlotte Perkins Gilman. It was like reading an Alfred Hitchcock movie. I need to write a journal on the other story we were assigned for class, so I should go do that. I also need to eat because I'm hungry.

* Actually we're doing Godspell Junior, which is just Godspell abridged, because we don't have time to learn a full length Broadway show

Feb. 20th, 2010


sleep cycle

I noticed today (not for the first time) how ridiculous my medication intake is. I was thinking about it because of a communication problem that made me miss my refill of one of my meds. One of the craziest things about my drugs is the fact that I take some to help me sleep and then I take some to help me wake up. I have a weird internal clock so night is when I'm most awake and active so I take my headache pills plus one that helps me sleep (if I don't have it I will lie awake all night no matter how tired I am and how much I am trying to sleep). Once I finally do get to sleep I am really asleep and it takes me about twelve to fifteen hours to really wake up even with the wake up drugs, the whole day up till then I will be awake, at least enough to function, but if you let me lie down I will go to sleep. Once I've woken up though, which happens around the time I want to go to bed, I can not get to sleep. It's very frustrating. Right now I want to go to sleep but I have just really woken up. It seems a waste to sleep through my  productive hours.

Earlier I made a set of theme stitch markers on commission from Charis. I got paid in beads and other jewelry stuff. They are such lovely goodies she has given me, I have to come up with something good to do with them.

I don't have anything else to say. I suppose I should try and go to sleep.

Feb. 14th, 2010


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I really should go to bed. I'm trying to sort out my sleep schedule so that I can be awake during the day. Usually I can stay awake until the afternoon, and I could probably make it through that too if I didn't go in my room and lay down on my bed. I go in there to work on stuff because when I'm alert I can work in there. I like to spread things out on my bed to work on them because there's more room and I can have solitude. Anywhere else in the house I can't spread out the way I want to and there will always be somebody coming around making some kind of noise. they don't even have to be talking to me, just the noise they make by being there is irritating to me when I'm trying to work on something. When I'm tired though it just doesn't work. I'll lay my head down and plan to start working in a couple of minutes and wake up hours later.

Instead of going to bed to fix my sleep schedule I thought I'd tell all of you about how I should go to bed. It makes perfect sense. 

In other news I've lost just over 25lbs. so far which is really good but I'm behind on my goal. My weight loss has slowed down and at this rate I won't reach my goal by October. My plan is to start exercising more. I'm going to start using our wii fit again. I haven't been on that thing in a loooong time. I think it would be a good idea for me to start doing the wii fit for half an hour in the mornings when I get up to help me wake up. I can make a schedule for myself with wii and shower and breakfast and school and everything all neatly laid out and then ignore it! I go through periods of schedule making and then I ignore my schedule and give up on making it and then after a period of time has gone by I try making a schedule again. I'm in a I-want-to-make-a-schedule phase again. I don't think I'll be satisfied until I've gone through the cycle. Oh well, it can't hurt.

Feb. 11th, 2010


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I have a headache and I don’t want to go to school today in the snow. I don’t care about the poet’s clever use of imagery and I don’t want to be bothered right now with trying to come up with and an intelligent sounding way to make it sound like I do. I want to curl up in bed with some headache medicine and read my book. What the expletive is that infernal beeping?! Whose deranged alarm clock is making that obnoxious noise?! Thank goodness it’s over now. I still don’t want to go to school. My brain hurts. I don’t want to drive in the snow; I don’t even want to go outside in the snow. I want to stay inside and build a fire. Woe is me for my sad fate. Why won’t the stupid school just close? That’s all I really want.

That's what I started typing instead of my English paper. No matter how many times I refresh the page it still says TCC is open today. *sigh* At least my formal dinner was canceled, that's something. Of course it will be rescheduled and I will have to face it sooner or later. *sigh* I do feel lucky that I don't have to report to where Charis works. She always comes home late from working more hours than she should and that makes her grumpy and today they are making her come in  and asked her to bring a bag in case they have to put her up in hotel because of the weather. I don't like that. I want Charis to get to stay home with a book.


ramblings of a brain dead student

I never post unless I'm avoiding writing something else, in this case my english homework. I'm trying to write it, really I am, but when I'm trying to write it my brain closes to all ideas related to the subject. It's very frustrating. Hopefully after some frivolous writing here my brain will unlock its thoughts and let me write. 

Tomorrow night I have to go to a formal dinner with the homeschool group I'm graduating with. We get to vote on our recessional music. I had to buy a dress for this occasion, and then I didn't have any jewelry that I wanted to wear with it so I made a necklace and a pair of earrings and they turned out very nicely.



My dress (modeled by the lovely Dorris)

So I'll get dressed up and before I get there I'll feel pretty, but as soon as I'm amongst my peers and I'm sitting by myself and no one is talking to me that will wear off. I'm sure I really am going to look nice, but I'm not going to feel nice. I must brace myself to feel rejected. Having said that I feel like I'm being very closed minded, perhaps if I just gave them a chance we could all be friends. Now I sound naive. I can never seem to win in these situations. I always come out feeling hurt and alone. At least Charis will be here to tell me I look nice and cheer me up when I get home. I hope she doesn't have any plans I don't know about that would mean she won't be there. I'm rambling now. I should go try and work on that paper some more.

Nov. 11th, 2009


my christmas/b-day wishlist

Because I promised Angel, here is my Christmas list

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It's not complete, I know there are things that I can't think of, but I'm sure this is plenty. I'll add stuff when I think of it.

Nov. 4th, 2009


Down six pounds!!!!

Today is the two week point on NutriSystem and I have now lost six lbs even with Angela's delicious scones. I'm pretty happy. My jeans are definitely feeling looser. The hunger has gotten a lot better, but I've starting thinking about food a lot. Mom and I went to IKEA on the way back from my neurologist last week and we ate in the restaurant there (I had a NS lunch bar and I got a grilled chicken salad) and smelling the food, especially the bread was hard. At Angela's party (which was super fun) I tried to be careful, I had grapes, some cheese,  a little ham, but the scones were so delicious that I had to have two. I didn't have a NS dinner or dessert that night though, and I stopped myself from having a third.
I have a pair of shoes that I really love and are really comfortable but they are getting very worn out. I can't throw them away. I've been trying to find another pair like them, not the exact same, but the same style. They're rocketdog slip on ballet tennis shoes, or whatever you it when it's like a sneaker but it dips low on the foot like a ballet flat.

Oct. 21st, 2009


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Today was day one on NutriSystem. The day started kind of late because it was rainy and I was in such a comfy position so I just didn't get up (rain has that effect on me, other people too, I just succumb easier). When I did get up I had my very first NutriSystem breakfast - a chocolate chip scone. I looked at the clock while I was chewing my first bite, it was 11:11. Good omen? I don't know. Anyway the scone was actually pretty good. Very dense. I didn't realise before how much you supplement the food they send you. Every meal you add something. With breakfast you get a dairy or a protein and a fruit. With lunch you get two vegetables and a dairy/protein. You get to have an afternoon snack of a dairy/protein and a fruit, and with dinner you get two vegetables, a fruit (you can replace the fruit with a third vegetable) and a fat. They have a guide that tells you what serving sizes to use for all the different vegetable etc. And you get dessert everyday! I'm going to get more dessert on my diet than off! And the fudge brownie I had today was actually pretty good, and tomorrow I get a white chocolate chink cookie!

It is going to take me awhile to get used to the portion sizes. I've had all of my food for today and I am pretty hungry. I just have to tell myself that feeling hungry is good. Feeling hungry means I'm losing weight. Before long my body will adjust to the new portions (hopefully) and I'll stop being so hungry.

Right now our biggest problem is where do we keep the food? Charis and I are both on the program so we have two big boxes full of our food for the month sitting in the living room. Our kitchen cabinets are pretty stuffed and our house is pretty pressed for storage in general. Our garage is a real nightmare. I think we just need to take everything out of the garage. Completely clear the space. A lot of the stuff in there really is just trash, the rest of it needs to be put in better storage boxes and stacked neatly. Right now it's just kind of thrown in a heap. We really need to do this. Soon. Every time I think about the garage I feel a little bit more insane.
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